Rules for my unborn Son

1.. Never shake a man’s hand sitting down.

2. There are plenty of ways to enter a pool. The stairs ain’t one.

3. The man at the grill is the closest thing we have to a king.

4. In a negotiation, never make the first offer.

5. Act like you’ve been there before. Especially in the end zone.

6. Request the late check-out.

7. When entrusted with a secret, keep it.

8. Hold your heroes to a higher standard.

9. Return a borrowed car with a full tank of gas.

10. Don’t fill up on bread.

11. When shaking hands, grip firmly and look him in the eye.

12. Don’t let a wishbone grow where a backbone should be.

13. If you need music on the beach, you’re missing the point.

14. Carry two handkerchiefs. The one in your back pocket is for you. The one in your breast pocket is for her.

15. You marry the girl, you marry her whole family.

16. Be like a duck. Remain calm on the surface and paddle like crazy underneath.

17. Experience the serenity of traveling alone.

18. Never be afraid to ask out the best looking girl in the room.

19. Never turn down a breath mint.

20. In a game of HORSE, sometimes a simple free throw will get ’em.

21. A sport coat is worth 1000 words.

22. Try writing your own eulogy. Never stop revising.

23. Thank a veteran. And then make it up to him.

24. If you want to know what makes you unique, sit for a caricature.

25. Eat lunch with the new kid.

26. After writing an angry email, read it carefully. Then delete it.

27. Ask your mom to play. She won’t let you win.

28. See it on the big screen.

29. Give credit. Take the blame.

30. Write down your dreams.

Update – It’s crazy to me but this post has somehow gone viral. For clarification, this was a list I consolidated from my favorite sayings at this (Source).

For more rules like these, check out the book Rules for My Unborn Son and Rules for My Newborn Daughter by Walker Lamond.

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R, Happy Birthday!

2 years and 1 days ago, I was under some hysterical mode. It was a day before the birthday of the love of my life, R and I needed an awesome cake. More so because my man loves to eat.

Being a baker myself, I knew exactly what I wanted but because I had to be at work at the entire time, I wasn’t sure I would have been able to give it the time it deserves. And this cake deserved time although it wasn’t very fancy.

I reached out to a few home bakers through a facebook group and sounded like a crazy woman with OCD interviewing experienced bakers on every step of how will they make the cake I want. I was clear. I wanted a two layer chocolate cake with mocha fresh cream frosting lined with Kit-Kats and topped with Nutties. That simple!

After a bunch of these crazy calls, I finally placed the order with one lady only to get a call back from her in about half an hour telling me how little she would be spending on the required chocolates. She lost me half through that 1 minute phone-call making me regret about giving her the order. I hung up hastily, trying to think of a good reason to give her and cancel the order. Not being unable to think of anything more convincing, I called her back and told her that I would be doing it myself.

I left work and ran around the whole of town trying to get my ingredients in place. Unable to find Nutties in over 10 stores, my panic levels were on the rise. Think the heavens above took pity to my misery and led me to a store from where I picked up all the packs they had in stock. I knew I may not have needed all of them but I didn’t have the time to risk it.

I got home to my pots and pans and whisked all the things together in butter, sugar, cocoa and love. Five hours later and minutes away from midnight, I finally had something in place.

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Although we aren’t together anymore, this day is and always will be special. Happy Birthday, Love.

 

 

R – Much to my anticipation

I’d never been on a date ‘date’ before that. The guys I was seeing before R were either from college or work. So there was already a sort of familiarity. I was newly single after a three year long toxic relationship and was just exploring tinder.

My first meeting someone on tinder went horribly wrong (more about that later). Hence, I was skeptical about meeting more people from tinder. Nevertheless, R, someone I matched with on tinder, sent a ‘Hi’ and I reciprocated. We chatted for a bit of the day for he next two days and I was still unsure of absolutely anything at all. All I knew was the tinder chat was tedious so I offered to switch to Whatsapp.

We continued to chat about random things we he asked me the next day if it’s okay for us to speak over a call. I froze at the very idea of it. A million incoherent thoughts went through my head. All stupid ones and they just wouldn’t stop. I just told him that I was nervous about speaking on call. He seemed like the kind of guy who would make me go weak in the knees. I just didn’t know how to handle it. He promised it would be okay and I so wanted to believe him.

When R called that evening for the first time, I didn’t have it in me to pick up the call. Those incoherent thoughts hounded me again. I sent him a text saying that I would call back in 30 minutes and with every passing second I was just becoming a bigger wreck. 45 minutes into tell him that I would call back, I finally gathered the nerves to dial his number. His ‘Hello’ sounded so familiar. It did put me to ease but I was still nervous. Really really nervous.

We spoke for a good 45 mins as I paced quickly in the parking of my building. I realized I was speaking much too fast and too much and I am pretty such my heart rate was upwards of 100 because in the middle of our conversation he asked a couple of times, “Why are you gasping? You sound breathless, are you okay?”. Little did I know that I was already in trouble. I had begun to fall in love with someone I’d never met, spoken just once and chatted with a few couple of times.

We chatted and spoke on call on the following days and he asked me in one of those conversations if it would be okay for him to kiss me the first time we met. I didn’t think. More like I couldn’t think of the perfect reply. I just asked him not to ask me in the moment in case he plans to go for it.

It was the first Saturday since we had started chatting and I was in the middle of just another regular day. R messaged me around noon asking me if I wanted to go out for a drink in a couple of hours? ‘Weren’t we suppose to meet for breakfast tomorrow?’ was the only thing I thought and just said yes. I knew if I thought about it at all, I would’ve overthought.I tried to stay calm but had panic written all over me. I had never been on a date ‘date’ before that. And although I had just seen his pictures on a dating app, it was practically a blind date! What should I wear and a few hundred other ‘W’ & ‘H’ questions filled me up and I had no answer to any of it.

Ofcourse OCD kicked in and I reach before time as I never understood the concept of fashionably late. It’s often so that on a date, the girl comes in later than the guy where he gets to pull the chair for her and blah blah blah. In this case, I was seated, flipping through the menu, even considering downing a drink to calm my nerves and nervously anticipating what my reaction should be the first time we met – for a moment I even considered if I should pretend that I didn’t recognize him. I knew it was any moment now.

R walked in so coolly! He looked around and spotted me. We both smiled and he just started walking towards our table.

He was HOT! Why did he even want to meet me? Do I look okay? I look trashy! Should I just hide? He is so tall! I am so short! Much like a midget in front of him. I am so inappropriately dressed. He is HOT! He is gorgeous! – some of the many million things running on my mind. Nervousness overtook and I needed a drink. Calm down me!

I was still having a hard time comprehending what to say or do next. He came and sat next to me. I asked him to choose my drink since he was familiar with the place and it was my first time there. I don’t remember what exactly we spoke about but I am pretty sure that he was the one who spoke the most while I shredded a piece of tissue paper to the tiniest of bits and the bits into further bits – all unconsciously while so engrossed in the conversation all due to nervousness.

I have little idea how quickly the next 6 hours flew by. We were both high (me much more than him) and all that was then on my mind was ‘Are we going to kiss?’. We got to the elevator and much to our luck, were joined by another guy and I knew nothing was happening. But much to our luck again, the guy got off on the next floor and now it was just the two of us. I couldn’t help but smile, cheese and looked at him. It was quite blur but I am pretty sure he was smiling too and just bent down and kissed me. It was magical. I just wish the elevator had some stopped mid-way and we kissed for longer. He left me in giggles and the butterflies in me felt alive again.

More later.

Just tindering – I

I have been on and off Tinder for almost three years now. Three years back when I was working in a start-up that was experimenting on making a mobile chat application, I had downloaded close to 50 different chat applications on the phone to explore their features. Since I was in a relationship then, I didn’t really experiment with this dating app much.

A few months later, I was out of that relationship (Thank God!) and that company (Thank God again!). I deleted most all of those apps but since I was single again and ready to mingle, I actually started using Tinder. The first guy I met off the app was a disaster. I walked out in less than 30 minutes. Details on that in some upcoming post.

The second guy who actually could hold onto a decent conversation seemed much better. Just to be sure that this too wasn’t going to be a complete surprise, I checked how tall he was. Call me shallow but I prefer tall guys. We chatted, met, hit it off and dated for a year. Turned out that he is the love of my life. We aren’t together anymore because well, life! The essence of him remains and I will always belong to him. More details on that as well in upcoming posts.

During that one year, I wasn’t on Tinder. Since I am not an extrovert, I have difficulties in meeting new people. I have a ‘no dating office guys’ policy because if things start to go bad, it gets complicated and then awkward. I have enough experience on that. So Tinder seemed like a good place to meet new people. Hence, much later after we parted, I was on the app again swiping more left than right.

During the time when I wasn’t using the it, Tinder became more to be known as a hook-up app than a dating app. Randomness of such sort never excited me. I need to connect with a person before jumping into bed with him. Chemistry is important. And almost all men I started matching with had zero conversation value. Such a turn off! Those who seemed to be better at the conversation part, steered it towards towards sex within minutes and then came the often ‘I am not looking for anything serious’ or ‘I am here only for casual sex’.

With time and maturity, I have realized that commitment from day one is stupidity. Hell, even I don’t know if I’d be able to keep up with it. Let’s get to know each other first and see how this goes. If it does work out, nothing like it. I guess I am still much behind though in terms of my thought process.

I always have and still hold an interesting conversation and chemistry to be a pre-requisite for sex. However, in my last few interactions on Tinder with several guys, I’ve gotten to know that Sex is now a pre-requisite to even meet for a drink. All the guys have asked me if there is a chance that there would be “something more” to do after drinks. I usually reply with a ‘Let’s see how it goes… can’t promise anything from now’ and bam! End of conversation. No, they don’t unmatch. They just stop chatting. And all I can ask myself is, ‘Am I too prude?’.

(To be continued…)

 

2 AM thoughts

You know when you think life is perfect. You have all the right things in perfect proportions. Nothing less, nothing more. Just right. That was the rock in my life. For me that was perfectly fitted puzzle and the biggest piece of them being my man. He was my anchor, kept me from drifting. I thought why do you need to take care of your rock? It’s strong enough in itself.

Not long before it started turning to sand. It took me a while to realize but I was already late. I clenched my fist but the stronger my grip, the more it started to slip away. Just like sand does. Do you think relationships are but a reflection of mere everyday happenings?

The thing about love is…

You know the thing about love is that when I happen to know that there’s just no hope for us to be together and yet I still pray to make it work. It’s when my mind says ‘let go’ but the heart says ‘hold on’. It’s when I dream of you every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in my eyes. And most of all, it’s when no matter how hard I try to forget and move on, I just can’t cause I love you so much and I have no reason why.